Heart shaped quicksand
I fell straight through.
Squeezed were the futile efforts of failing limbs
to grasp for any tangible lifeline.
So intense the suffocation.
Succumbed, relaxed
as you filled my lungs.
I savor your sand on my skin
The Intoxicating smell of earth and sweat engulfed my nostrils.
The loveliness of the experience
burned blinding grit into my eyes.
The gravity of free fall - delicious.
I woke up on the other side of love,
somewhere between caution and delirium
Covered in the afterbirth of your microorganisms,
imprinted upon me.
Sunbathing in the minutia of your being,
following the breadcrumbs of ecstasy,
I search for you, but you are gone.
Tasting lemon-drop realization,
I already knew the ending,
I wouldn't make it out of this trip with my heart.
I wouldn't be the same when I returned.
When we get to the point in the evolution of our consciousness whereby we recognize life is a matrix, hologram, illusion that I refer to as the "physical" interesting things begin to happen. One of which is trying to reconcile what exactly is the point of all of this if we now know it's an illusion? That's the point. We came to experience this, we chose this. We choose the levels, the players, the tools, and the assets that make up this experience. The tendency then becomes not to understand the universe but ourselves and why did we choose this -- what did I need to experience this part of the game for? Typically, this occurs when something we don't like happens.
Some might say, you were vibrating and attracting and you drew it to you. I don't disagree however, that now sounds much like blame. Along the lines of why did I draw this to me? Again, this is okay as long as you do not blame yourself. Take it another step. When you made some of these choices you were creating unconsciously and some of those choices are still playing out. Then, some of the choices you won't really understand completely sometimes because that's the fun of the game! We don't want to skip to the end and read that final chapter, which would be so dull. What fun would life be for us without some sort of contrast to shake us up? We already get high just breathing air; we recognize that we are truly separate from nothing, what else is there to get worked up about? Ourselves. Our contrasting experiences. Out of contrast we have the opportunity to create, remember, discover, uncover, excavate.
Rather than to think there is something wrong with us, our thoughts, our vibrations, our manifesting, perhaps it is wise to remember that WE ARE DIVINE and that even when our choices feel painful, we chose this, and therefore it's part is helpful and useful to us even when we can't see how. Trust yourself. That's what we came here for -- to experience life in its sweet and rotten parts. It is both pleasure and pain, especially pain that gives birth to the cathartic process of creation. This is true of artists, poets and musicians but it's also true of anyone. Pain can spur change. Perhaps we can get to the point whereby we start to appreciate turmoil, as this is an opportunity to prove to ourselves how much grace and power we truly have.
Then the fun begins. We now know all of these illusions we can use to help us in this board game. Oh - you want a new car, great let's manifest this illusion. When we make a choice and we don't like the results we know we can just make another choice, and keep making choices until we have peace with those choices. Oh - you like the car but don't like that car payment, well let's go with a different illusion, one that matches your desires.
So the next time you think something is wrong with your manifesting just mindfully shift your thought patterns to "I know it feels wrong now, but the divine in me always chooses right." Namaste
Some might say, you were vibrating and attracting and you drew it to you. I don't disagree however, that now sounds much like blame. Along the lines of why did I draw this to me? Again, this is okay as long as you do not blame yourself. Take it another step. When you made some of these choices you were creating unconsciously and some of those choices are still playing out. Then, some of the choices you won't really understand completely sometimes because that's the fun of the game! We don't want to skip to the end and read that final chapter, which would be so dull. What fun would life be for us without some sort of contrast to shake us up? We already get high just breathing air; we recognize that we are truly separate from nothing, what else is there to get worked up about? Ourselves. Our contrasting experiences. Out of contrast we have the opportunity to create, remember, discover, uncover, excavate.
Rather than to think there is something wrong with us, our thoughts, our vibrations, our manifesting, perhaps it is wise to remember that WE ARE DIVINE and that even when our choices feel painful, we chose this, and therefore it's part is helpful and useful to us even when we can't see how. Trust yourself. That's what we came here for -- to experience life in its sweet and rotten parts. It is both pleasure and pain, especially pain that gives birth to the cathartic process of creation. This is true of artists, poets and musicians but it's also true of anyone. Pain can spur change. Perhaps we can get to the point whereby we start to appreciate turmoil, as this is an opportunity to prove to ourselves how much grace and power we truly have.
Then the fun begins. We now know all of these illusions we can use to help us in this board game. Oh - you want a new car, great let's manifest this illusion. When we make a choice and we don't like the results we know we can just make another choice, and keep making choices until we have peace with those choices. Oh - you like the car but don't like that car payment, well let's go with a different illusion, one that matches your desires.
So the next time you think something is wrong with your manifesting just mindfully shift your thought patterns to "I know it feels wrong now, but the divine in me always chooses right." Namaste
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Think of your favorite salad. What’s your favorite ingredient? Some love tomatoes, others like carrots, it doesn’t really matter. What’s important is that the salad has variety, it’s interesting, it can change in endless ways, and each part can be enjoyed alone, a slice of garden ripe tomato with a dash of salt is a simple pleasure.
Much like a salad we all have our own unique and delicious properties that we can and do bring to world. Some people like us, some do not, and it’s nothing personal. There’s nothing wrong with the onion, just because it is unlike lettuce, they are simply different. There is nothing wrong with you because you cannot do, say or be something others are. There is nothing wrong with others because they are unlike you. One is no better or worse than another.
If a mushroom could talk, would it complain about it being a fungus? It would be ridiculous for it to complain about who it is or try to fix itself, for it is loved by so many for just being itself. Likewise it would be insane to complain at the mushroom for being fungus and not like a pepper. The things that makes a salads enjoyable is it’s variety of flavors, textures, colors and sensations when eaten together. The things that make us beautiful is that we are all different and have our own unique traits to being to the salad bowl of life. We have friends, family and loved ones that make up for what we are not. We are NOT lacking anything. What you think you need, or are deficient in, look around you, I promise someone has it and is willing to share.
But we are so much more complicated than vegetables. Are we? Do we need to be? Isn’t what is wrong with us also what makes us who we are? Indeed. In order to know light one must know dark. One cannot know how to be loving and compassionate without having gone through pain. One cannot court the muse of creativity without mourning her departure. Likewise god/the universe blew itself up so it could become many fragments, so it could experience and know itself. We are all these particles of the universe clumping together and reminding each other of that which we are, as individuals and as a whole. I see infinite traits, characteristics and possibilities when I scan the faces of my beloved and it brings me such joy.
That is not to say we cannot aspire to be better. It is not to say that we cannot admire and emulate that which we believe serves our higher purpose. Self improvement is always good as long as you are not trying to be something you are not, and making yourself miserable in the proccess. It simply means that you are prefect because you are you, being you. You are a perfect work in progress. If you were truly perfect and whole, you wouldn’t be here on earth having this human experience.
So when you do experience that makes you feel angry, embarrassed, ashamed, hurt, deficient, lonely, sad, bored, or other negative emotions as a result of what you think you lack, remember -- this is why you are not alone. This is an opportunity for divine grace to show up to heal you in the form of a friend when you are in need. You bring something to this world that others do not. Embrace YOU because you are the only one of you that will ever be, and you have something to ad to this salad that no one else does. Live it. Be grateful for you and only you can contribute your part to this delicious cosmic salad. Enjoy!
Much like a salad we all have our own unique and delicious properties that we can and do bring to world. Some people like us, some do not, and it’s nothing personal. There’s nothing wrong with the onion, just because it is unlike lettuce, they are simply different. There is nothing wrong with you because you cannot do, say or be something others are. There is nothing wrong with others because they are unlike you. One is no better or worse than another.
If a mushroom could talk, would it complain about it being a fungus? It would be ridiculous for it to complain about who it is or try to fix itself, for it is loved by so many for just being itself. Likewise it would be insane to complain at the mushroom for being fungus and not like a pepper. The things that makes a salads enjoyable is it’s variety of flavors, textures, colors and sensations when eaten together. The things that make us beautiful is that we are all different and have our own unique traits to being to the salad bowl of life. We have friends, family and loved ones that make up for what we are not. We are NOT lacking anything. What you think you need, or are deficient in, look around you, I promise someone has it and is willing to share.
But we are so much more complicated than vegetables. Are we? Do we need to be? Isn’t what is wrong with us also what makes us who we are? Indeed. In order to know light one must know dark. One cannot know how to be loving and compassionate without having gone through pain. One cannot court the muse of creativity without mourning her departure. Likewise god/the universe blew itself up so it could become many fragments, so it could experience and know itself. We are all these particles of the universe clumping together and reminding each other of that which we are, as individuals and as a whole. I see infinite traits, characteristics and possibilities when I scan the faces of my beloved and it brings me such joy.
That is not to say we cannot aspire to be better. It is not to say that we cannot admire and emulate that which we believe serves our higher purpose. Self improvement is always good as long as you are not trying to be something you are not, and making yourself miserable in the proccess. It simply means that you are prefect because you are you, being you. You are a perfect work in progress. If you were truly perfect and whole, you wouldn’t be here on earth having this human experience.
So when you do experience that makes you feel angry, embarrassed, ashamed, hurt, deficient, lonely, sad, bored, or other negative emotions as a result of what you think you lack, remember -- this is why you are not alone. This is an opportunity for divine grace to show up to heal you in the form of a friend when you are in need. You bring something to this world that others do not. Embrace YOU because you are the only one of you that will ever be, and you have something to ad to this salad that no one else does. Live it. Be grateful for you and only you can contribute your part to this delicious cosmic salad. Enjoy!
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Deeper I go
While many stay shallow
Their faces betray fears
"Hey - join me! The water is safe out here in the deep!
It's all in the mind,
All in the mind."
Shedding fears
Challenging tears,
Erasing years
Puzzling Peers.
I am skinny dipping alone
Feeling the loveliness of being one with the water
I once feared,
And now I couldn't be without.
If it weren't for my human being
I would stay in.
Nevertheless physical matter beckons me from the shore
Just five more minutes.
I live to go deep
Deeper into the dark, mysterious waters
For the simple pleasure
Of reminding myself that I no longer fear
And the joy of the experience.
Her gentle licks on my skin
His stars in sand
They caress and hold my weightless body
I remember this IS all that there IS NOW
I remember.
When I remember,
I realize I was never alone
I just couldn't see them before
Look at all those lovely beings
Just like me,
Wait is that me or them? Both.
I see
The universe is a diamond.
And we are all facets
Reflecting our own spectrum slightly differently
Reflecting to and off each other.
This is bliss
Could it be any more beautiful than this?
I cry as my heart bursts open
and love pours from my tears.
I am more grateful now than ever
That I remember.
I can't wait to swim again
So I can remember some more.
The unknown parts of being
The only true last frontier.
While many stay shallow
Their faces betray fears
"Hey - join me! The water is safe out here in the deep!
It's all in the mind,
All in the mind."
Shedding fears
Challenging tears,
Erasing years
Puzzling Peers.
I am skinny dipping alone
Feeling the loveliness of being one with the water
I once feared,
And now I couldn't be without.
If it weren't for my human being
I would stay in.
Nevertheless physical matter beckons me from the shore
Just five more minutes.
I live to go deep
Deeper into the dark, mysterious waters
For the simple pleasure
Of reminding myself that I no longer fear
And the joy of the experience.
Her gentle licks on my skin
His stars in sand
They caress and hold my weightless body
I remember this IS all that there IS NOW
I remember.
When I remember,
I realize I was never alone
I just couldn't see them before
Look at all those lovely beings
Just like me,
Wait is that me or them? Both.
I see
The universe is a diamond.
And we are all facets
Reflecting our own spectrum slightly differently
Reflecting to and off each other.
This is bliss
Could it be any more beautiful than this?
I cry as my heart bursts open
and love pours from my tears.
I am more grateful now than ever
That I remember.
I can't wait to swim again
So I can remember some more.
The unknown parts of being
The only true last frontier.
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It's easy to focus on what's missing, it's natural. Pain is a sign that something is wrong, naturally it produces discomfort, which then causes change. If we step back and look at what is right, it's possible to appreciate how much more is right than wrong within our lives. I was pondering the true meaning of the word rich, which I also equate to abundance. I've realized that I am rich in nearly all areas of life. I bet you are too, maybe you don't even realize it. It is interesting when we say someone is "rich" we usually mean monetarily prosperous. By definition if we determine that we are rich in more areas than not, we are indeed rich. Here is how Merriam-Webster defines rich and abundance:
rich adj \ˈrich\
1 : having abundant possessions and especially material wealth
2 a : having high value or quality b : well supplied or endowed rich in traditions>
3 : magnificently impressive : sumptuous
4 : a : vivid and deep in color rich red>b : full and mellow in tone and quality rich voice>c : having a strong fragrance rich perfumes>
5 : highly productive or remunerative rich mine>
6 a : having abundant plant nutrients rich soil>b : highly seasoned, fatty, oily, or sweet rich foods>c : high in the combustible component rich fuel mixture>d : high in some componentrich foods>
7 a : entertaining; also : laughableb : meaningful, significant rich allusions>c : lush rich meadows>
8 : pure or nearly pure rich lime>
abun·dance noun \ə-ˈbən-dən(t)s\
1 : an ample quantity : profusion
2 : affluence, wealth
3 : relative degree of plentifulnessabundances of uranium and thorium — H. C. Urey>
Here are the ways I am rich:
My spirit is loving, compassionate, accepting, forgiving, courageous, peaceful, generous, strong, allowing, positive, joyous, reverent, expanding and growing. I am grateful for this spirit which allows me to fully appreciate this beautiful journey called life.
My mind is open, creative, rich in knowledge, active thought and curious. I am grateful for this mind that assists me in the understanding the unfolding of life and all of it's wonders.
My body is healthy, beautiful, radiant and strong. Although I don't always understand the nature of my physical short comings, I accept that it allows me to have contrast, which inspires me to change, create and expand my life in new areas.
My family. I have many different types of people in my family, some of them are beautiful, strong, independent women who I have learned much from; others are very different. Creating harmonious relationships within a diverse family of loved ones, has taught me to love people for who they are, and not who I wish they were. It has also taught me when to walk away when harmony is out of reach. I am grateful for these learning experience with family.
My friends. My friends are some of the most awesome people in the universe, that I am certain. My friends are loving, accepting, intelligent, respectful, gracious, creators who I have chosen to allow into my inner circle because I respect and appreciate their souls especially; and they have allowed me to love them. They have taught me wonderful things. I am so grateful for the quality of my friendships.
(Tagged, I'm talking about you. Feel free to remove this if you're shy.)
My pets. They are beautiful manifestations of pure love. I am grateful for their companionship and the healing relationship that they offer to me and I am happy to be able to care for them.
My world. The more scientists explore the earth the more they learn that Earth is unique. The earth has terrain that is vastly different from one place to another with extreme variations in everything from temperatures, altitudes, vegetation, animals, people, minerals and water supplies. The earth embodies and amplifies what is true about our human conditions. There are volcanoes, hurricanes, tornadoes, floods, fires and storms and yet she always restores back to perfect balance. With all trauma that occurs with earth, good things come of it. This is true of our lives, our bodes and our spirits. I am grateful for the learning experience that earth offers. I am grateful for all of her resources: shelter, food, water, materials- beings both sentient and non-sentient. Earth is a beautiful place to play. I am grateful for this life.
Have you realized and appreciated how rich your life is?
Yes I wrote this, feel free to share it if you'd like and replace what you are grateful for in your own words.
rich adj \ˈrich\
1 : having abundant possessions and especially material wealth
2 a : having high value or quality b : well supplied or endowed rich in traditions>
3 : magnificently impressive : sumptuous
4 : a : vivid and deep in color rich red>b : full and mellow in tone and quality rich voice>c : having a strong fragrance rich perfumes>
5 : highly productive or remunerative rich mine>
6 a : having abundant plant nutrients rich soil>b : highly seasoned, fatty, oily, or sweet rich foods>c : high in the combustible component rich fuel mixture>d : high in some component
7 a : entertaining; also : laughableb : meaningful, significant rich allusions>c : lush rich meadows>
8 : pure or nearly pure rich lime>
abun·dance noun \ə-ˈbən-dən(t)s\
1 : an ample quantity : profusion
2 : affluence, wealth
3 : relative degree of plentifulness
Here are the ways I am rich:
My spirit is loving, compassionate, accepting, forgiving, courageous, peaceful, generous, strong, allowing, positive, joyous, reverent, expanding and growing. I am grateful for this spirit which allows me to fully appreciate this beautiful journey called life.
My mind is open, creative, rich in knowledge, active thought and curious. I am grateful for this mind that assists me in the understanding the unfolding of life and all of it's wonders.
My body is healthy, beautiful, radiant and strong. Although I don't always understand the nature of my physical short comings, I accept that it allows me to have contrast, which inspires me to change, create and expand my life in new areas.
My family. I have many different types of people in my family, some of them are beautiful, strong, independent women who I have learned much from; others are very different. Creating harmonious relationships within a diverse family of loved ones, has taught me to love people for who they are, and not who I wish they were. It has also taught me when to walk away when harmony is out of reach. I am grateful for these learning experience with family.
My friends. My friends are some of the most awesome people in the universe, that I am certain. My friends are loving, accepting, intelligent, respectful, gracious, creators who I have chosen to allow into my inner circle because I respect and appreciate their souls especially; and they have allowed me to love them. They have taught me wonderful things. I am so grateful for the quality of my friendships.
(Tagged, I'm talking about you. Feel free to remove this if you're shy.)
My pets. They are beautiful manifestations of pure love. I am grateful for their companionship and the healing relationship that they offer to me and I am happy to be able to care for them.
My world. The more scientists explore the earth the more they learn that Earth is unique. The earth has terrain that is vastly different from one place to another with extreme variations in everything from temperatures, altitudes, vegetation, animals, people, minerals and water supplies. The earth embodies and amplifies what is true about our human conditions. There are volcanoes, hurricanes, tornadoes, floods, fires and storms and yet she always restores back to perfect balance. With all trauma that occurs with earth, good things come of it. This is true of our lives, our bodes and our spirits. I am grateful for the learning experience that earth offers. I am grateful for all of her resources: shelter, food, water, materials- beings both sentient and non-sentient. Earth is a beautiful place to play. I am grateful for this life.
Have you realized and appreciated how rich your life is?
Yes I wrote this, feel free to share it if you'd like and replace what you are grateful for in your own words.
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