Orphan of Misery (Poem)

Posted by Zephyr
Looking for luck or love
its like
the rain
the sun
chasing rainbows
gone
hope removed until the next rain.

A single leaf
fallen into the sea
subject to the calm or
thrashing waves
currents or tides
getting dizzy
trying to keep sight of the big dipper
hoping to reach solid ground
before it
disintegrates or
is taken under
clinging to anything rushing by until
eventually
they part
the leaf knows its purpose but
the sea it seems
has other plans.

Who is going to win?

Like a skilled painter gone color blind
talent seems wasted on me
for I have neither the time nor
inspiration concurrently
it’s a cruel trick
to wave the steak in front of the caged lion.

Cat’s on fire
my chest aches
another day of quarreling
with my dependent.
Today I aged a year
I had to sleep
visions of my hopes and dreams
swirling down the toilet
will I ever get to see one grow up?
Every disappointment is like
the loss of a child or a beloved pet

Every heart break
is 3 years gone
how many times can a heart be wounded before the scars get in the way?
Are they in the way?

I look around and realize
there is nothing here for me
my life is on auto pilot
void of pleasantry
responsibilities, responsibilities, responsibilities
is all I see.
When can I feel joy
when can I be free
when is life ever going to be about me?
I am an orphan of misery
this kind of heart break cannot be remedied.
I remind my self in part, this path was of my choosing.

No weed to smoke
No coke to blow
No alcohol to douse the flames
No chocolate or ice cream
No shopping spree
Not even a prescription pill to pop
No
I have to deal with today
COLD TURKEY

So I will take my chest pains
my pillow and bed
cable TV
with pen in hand
I will write
I will write to ease me.

-- Shaman Chitta
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